Life on the Beach

I'm not perfect. I have a fair share of my own shortcomings too. After all, I'm just a human being and I'm still susceptible to temptations and evilness. But that's not an enough reason or excuse for me to commit sins.

I guess I'm writing this entry for reasons that I may have brought an impression to some (especially to those who barely know me or don't know me at all) that I'm already "too holy" or that I'm all good. Also, I've just experienced my first time to fall into temptation ever since I was born again. That of which I'm not really proud of and got me really distressed and thinking for the whole day. With this whole new faith and heart, I've been growing with the fear of the Lord. Not the fear that is associated with anxiousness or threat but that of reverence with Him.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that we can really never try to "test ourselves" by strolling by the shore and "testing" the waters. We walk by the shore thinking we are safe from the big wave and that we can run even before it engulfs us. But really, as human beings, we can never be certain when a big wave will come. It will consume us when we are caught off guard, like a big surprise. So why stroll by the shore when we can stay on the beach itself-- safe and far away from the water? On the beach where He is.

Right now, I just have to forgive myself for what I've done, learn from it and pray for more strength and wisdom. I pray that I will be stronger and be able to withstand all temptations around me. The world is full of evilness, there is no doubt about it. It lurks around, hides in the corner and pries us when we are off guard. That is why we need to draw our hearts closer to Him and away from all the evilness.

Romans 12:2

Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is-- his good, pleasing and perfect will.

James 4:8

Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded.